Siem has been having a rough time of it, trying to come to terms with this, to absorb the fact of his son's death. This young life, so full of promise, cut off so abruptly, so quickly, without any warning. He feels betrayed and abandoned, to have the slowly developing partner-son relationship with his oldest boy summarily terminated. And all the spent care and nurturing, all the guiding and counseling, all the built up hopes and happy pride - all gone! All wasted!
He wishes they could have had some parting talks, to straighten out any misunderstandings that might have been. No one is ever prepared. A sudden death shakes up one's whole world, shocks one with a sense of inexplicable doom. Who ever knows what lies in the future?
He tosses and turns in bed that evening, unable to sleep. Marie complains several times.
At last he dozes off.
